Thursday, December 14, 2006
OKAY PEOPLE! im not here to blog about my saddened life but here to announce something. LOL!I HAVE MOVED! No not house. I'VE MOVED MY BLOG TO ELSEWHERE! Lol. Because i realised the URL i gave this blog is a little bit off the hook. so got another one ready. LoL..So please change your links to my other blog instead of this. PLEASE AND THANK YOU! Oh and tag it alright? cos i almost went blind looking at the templates. LoL. CHEERS PEOPLE!
Here's the blog URL ----> www.chupa-chups-woots.blogspot.com
posted @ 5:23 PM
Thursday, November 30, 2006
I hate it.The feeling inside.
The weakness pulling me down.
The wall putting me from you.
The distance kept between us.
I'm mixed
In a solution full of emotion.
Sorrow, anger and pain.
How can i make you understand?
How may i let you know?
Maybe i should stop.
Maybe i should give up.
Maybe we should be drifted like the way it is.
No matter what i do,
You are still trapped inside the world of your own.
Refusing to understand
Choose to be nonchalent
Hope to be ignorant
Hurt you are, i may not know.
Why put me through dismay.
Dishearted and dismissed
I walked away.
Thinking how we used to be,
The time before you changed.
The time before you were hurt.
The time when you need someone,
I was there.
Now you're free.
Free to do anything.
Lost in my words
I got discarded.
Back in your circle you have
Throwing what you used to have behind.
Living a cheerful life
For i took the suffering.
Left-out and outcast
I walked away.
posted @ 1:14 AM
Tuesday, November 28, 2006
I don't know how to start off but here i am blogging in class. Lecturer left with our test papers. The test that most of us cheated and the teacher does not give a dam about it. The guy beside me, L, is occasionally helpful. Sometimes i just wanna slap him in the face. He completed 5 parts of the tutorial that we are supposed to do and i merely asked him about one of the question in part 3, he simply said "This one i don't know". Alright how the hell did you finish off those parts in front then? I really don't like this feeling. Helpless and dependent. I want to be smart. I want to do well. I want to know what im doing instead of pleading others for help. The feeling of emptiness and rejection. The urge to be alone yet don't wanna be alone. I'm in a mixed feeling now. What am i suppose to feel? What am i feeling now? I hate everyone. I hate myself. Life is so cold. When my friends are having fun now, i'm being depressed over somethings i don't even know what is. I wanna tell you but you are just too nonchalent and you won't care. So what is the point? I really have no way out now. The cough you gave me is so very irritating. Yet you don't even care. Why should i be in here. Why should i be caring for people who doesn't care at all. WHY tell me. WHY. Please. i need someone to tell me the solution desperately. I really really hope for someone who can really understand me. Who can? No one can. My mind is just constantly thinking of things that even i can't handle it. Why am i always caring for people who doesn't deserve any and ignored those who cared so much? Am i insane? I felt like crying. Cry it all out. Shout out loud. Let myself go. Save me. Anyone.In the world of lights,
Darkness sets into me.
Taking me down from the flight,
A great big fall.
Hurt and despair,
I shouted.
I cried.
In the long deserted corner,
Left to die.
posted @ 3:48 PM
AAAAALLLLLRIGHT! I get it already. I know i haven't been blogging very often for now and people are leaving my blog to another blog, letting mine to be as dead as ever. NOOOO. please don't leave! Actually, i kinda forgot about my user and password for my blog account but thankfully i got an easy to remember user and password. So yeah no worries! this blog will go on! provided that i have the time and i feel hardworking enough. :X
Okay back to blogging.
I've realised how much things are actually going on in my life now. Upset ones, happy moments and of course, the ones caught in the middle. It's really depressing on how people changes as time goes on and how the happy memories made you regret not really treasuring time more. Sometimes you would just wished that Time was a little slower for you to catch your breathe and enjoy life to the very end.
In primary school, we were naive and innocent and know no worries except playgrounds and fun. When graduated from Primary, we moved on to Secondary, hoping for a better life than in the previous years. With both acadamic and peer pressure, we moved on hastily and graduated in no time. While in Tertiary (T) level, we wished that time were slower. Giving Us, human, more Time to live our lives and cherish what were in the previous years. Those fond memories. Those fun times. Those times when we were still loony and messing around with your own cliques in the public.
Unlike in Primary and Secondary, it is way too difficult to bond in the Tertiary level. Cliques changes now and then. People direct their attention to new friends, forgetting how the "old" ones, who once had so much fun together. Feeling left-out is also one of the fact that One must get over with in T. If you can't be as loud or louder than the clique, you get left behind. Simple as that. If you are not a fun person to be with, you get outcast. No matter how hard We try, things will always be that way. Fixed and systematic. I guess that's life. No matter what we try to do to get One's trust and friendship, gradually, we'll lose them. No matter how much effort you put in, they just wouldn't care. Living by the days is just too common in T. Caring no longer exist. Only when you are needed, you are asked for.
I hope for Primary and Secondary. Life without worries nor stress. Life without emotion distress. Life so carefree and wild. Maybe i'm just not cut out to be an independent young man. I need friends. Yet they've hurt me far to many times. Not all, but the few whom i really cared for. It's surprising to find that sometimes people whom i thought wouldn't care cared. This makes who i care for meaningless and pointless. I'm sick. I'm tired. At times, being selfish is required. Being emotionless would be best. Being nonchalent will bring an end to controversy nor emotional breakdown. It's too difficult to live. Too hard to breathe. I miss the times. I miss the happiness. I miss them.
posted @ 1:22 AM
Monday, October 16, 2006
WOOTS okay i just came back from camp 2 days ago and its VERY FUN! I mean before i enter the camp i kept thinking to myself that its not fun and it's gonna be tough, yet on contradictory stand, i told myself it is going to be fun and not like those normal camps i went before. This is Volleyball camp. Anything can happened, and i was provened that i was right afterall. LoLs.I shan't go into the details of what happened in the 4 days camp. It is just purely training and fun. Training wise it is tougher than dragonboat's training camp. We had to wake up at 5 30 and prepare ourselves at 6am and go do training all the way till lunch. Then after lunch we will train some more and till dinner. After dinner we are allowed to slack and for the other team, they had to organise something for us because they lost in a "Super-heroes" competition.
The event they planned was held during mid night and it lasted for quite awhile. So the next day we only had 1 hour of sleep. That's the maximum. LoLs. Tough leh. The rest of the day i look like zombie. LoLs.
One more thing that i have to say. MY CONTACT LENSES! Shit lo. Everytime i wear them in camp, the left eye gets too dry to see clearly almost immediately. So i was totally irritated by the annoying "foggy" vision that i had at my left eye all this while. Felt like throwing it away but that's the last pair already. So i have to get new one soon. And fast. lols.
Oh by the way, i did bring back something with me after the camp, partly the experience and leadership, but mainly, SCANDALS! LOLOL! oh my god. why am i always the aim for scandals in volleyball? LOL. tell me whyyyY! lolols.
Okay enough of camp. I just wanna say, i tottaly hate that THING i call brother for the past 17 years. I mean sometimes he's really nice and occasionally when my friends, who knew that my brother is a total scumbag jackass, scolded him, i try to speak up for him although i was the one who told them he suck. Yet MOST of the time he is mean, hypocritical, noisy and so irritating. Like today. He came home late at night still in his school uniform. Upon letting his bag down onto the sofa, he came into our room and open his farking gap that he so happen to name it the mouth. If he asked me nicely to leave the computer then MAYBE i would just entertain him a little. Yet he commanded me to leave the PC YET AGAIN. I act as if he wasn't there and continued with my game ( NOTE: i was playing DOTA and i can't leave half-way). He went to bath and came back with a harsher tone. I just hate it. He sat behind me on his bed and repeatedly making himself clear that he want me to be gone from the computer, knowing clearly that when playing dota, we can't leave anyhow, not even when im playing with friends. He raised his voice a little higher this time asking me to leave the seat because i totally ignored his existance. Then he shouted and asked if i was deaf. i manage to shake my head in recognition of telling him "yeah yeah whatever, do i look deaf?" Then i felt like standing up and throw the freaking chair onto his face to make him fall on the ground and beg. I guess i'm not the violent type. I told the friends whom he and i knows in the game that i have to leave. While i was telling them that i had to leave, the sudden urge of telling them that that thing asked me to go off and he is being such a fucker.
I sometimes will just curse him in silence. Wanna know what are the curses i said? I hope he breaks up with his girlfriend ( i just cant stand how he manage to get so intimate ,like sleeping together on one single bed hugging each other, with every of his girlfriends. It's just like toying them). i think that one is enough for him to suffer. Oh wait. He gets over a girl faster than any other people. So yeah who cares. Whenever i heard that he got a new girlfriend, i always have the urge to tell those pitiful girls how hypocritical that THING is and how he use to treat me. Whatever. I dislike him.
"I have reasons to hate you forever,
And you just proved yourself"
posted @ 11:41 PM
Sunday, October 08, 2006
Okay im so sorry. i realised i didn't visit blogs for ages and nt even my own blog. I should have came in and return those tag replies. BUT now is not too late either right? im gonna do the replying in my blog entry. Is that okay with you all? okay i hear no objection so here we go! LoLOLOLOL!!!! =pMe to-
Min: sry i dun think you will need to go back to school now. COS you finished your promos! WOOTS. congrats.
=) : I think so too! lols. but right, i nid the money. So i have to work the long hours. SOBXXX. Erms...SORRY. haven't been blogging. LoLs. =X
D-WYSON: LoL. yea i will chill. after i murder those asses. =D
Darrell: i bet you are in other people's topic all the time. Just like now. LoLs.
shun: LOLOL. oh i see. ahahas. you are mad la can? hahas. totally la. he was walking towards PS lo. and im walking the other way. So bu fang bian. And how cna you use me as your free publicity? LIEWS. im like so popular. LOL! =p
=): you wanna noe how to destress? add me in msn and identify yourself. =DD
Jianhow: EH is you never come and talk to me one can? Liews. now still wanna tell ms nai. nvm me, long and her still remain a good relationship. unlike you. =pppp
Matthew: Hahahahas. sry la. was busy marh. =p dota cannot chi fan one. dun dota so much. cos you get owned too. =X
Madchelle: yea i updated! with all the tag replies! LOL! =X
Roman: WOah thanks for the cheem words. LoL. thanks for coming to my blog and leave your prints too. i so miss you. LoLs.
Alfred: ALFRED! IM VERY BUSY LEHHHH. LoL. =D
benjaaaa: sure do. thats the very least i can do for a friend. =DD
alan`: I miss talking to you too la mean porkie. LoL. what meal sia. you are supposed to treat me to my meal OKAY! =p
okay thats it for the tags till now. i will try to come here more often to at least reply the tags. do tag more often though. you wil never know when will be the lucky draw.( that such a lie. LoLs.) Oh wait. you all may win an exclusive photo album with all my super model pictures in it. =D how cool is that? lols. =D and i wanna share with you all my schedule for the last week of holidays. I just realised how packed it IS. lols.
Sunday, 8 Oct 06 : Working full shift. 10am to 10 30pm
Monday, 9 Oct 06: Working Mid shift. 12pm to 8 30 pm
Tuesday, 10 Oct 06: Working Mid shift. 12pm to 8 30 pm
Wedesday, 11 Oct 06: Check into school for training camp. 7pm
Thursday to Satuday, 12 Oct - 14 Oct 06: In camp doing training. Timing alters
Sunday, 15 Oct 06: Working Full shift. 10am to 10 30pm
THERE GOES MY LAST WEEK OF HOLIDAY! and i thought i can spend my last week of holidays with my friends. LoL. OH WELLS! i guess thats life. hope i won't get too tired for everything. LoL. i nid to check my timetable too. LOL. =X~
I need a break. SERIOUSLY! lols. =X i hate the haze. its making my nose itchy and sneeze like nobody's business. LoLs. MAY THE SKY BRING RAIN AND DISPENSE THE HAZE! lols. =p
posted @ 1:12 AM
Friday, September 22, 2006
OKAY. it has been long since i last bitched about people but some fat asses and one prostitute just pushed the button.WARNING! PARENTAL GUIDANCE ADVISED. Don't read if you don't have a parent with you.
Some Mother farkers who didn't get enough of their mothers' pussies who were sitting behind us ( alf ben and me) were actually talking about us! They think they were soft enough so that none of us could hear when their sausage mouths are just too farking big. Obviously they didn't know that although i have small ears, my ears are actually on an auto mode in hearing things around me. And thankfully, i heard those fat pigs talking.
Mother farker 1 : "i think it's a gay outing, har har har."
Mother farker 2: " Ya i think so too! look! Ew. I saw alot of gays recently"
Mother farker 1: " Can we go home alfred?( in a gay voice)" ( i was saying this to alf and they heard me)
Thats all i remembered clearly. The rest, are just some pigs talking. Don't mind it. Okay Everything was fine when he actually imitated me. That has just totally pushed my button. I mean, LOOK AT YOURSELF! Both of you are fat, ugly, fair, short, speaks bad english, looks like she-male ( becos they practically have boobs), And they can actually tease people when they are very much worse themselves. They can go lick their mothers' pussies and have an incest relationship with their moms and after they are done, they can go fark themselves or maybe to their likings, get farked by their pathetic fathers. It's pretty sad how parents actually gave birth to such pieces of shit to pollute the world. Wasting so much air and resources. Especially when they are SO FARKING FAT! I think they are just 'Too gay to function' ( quoted, Mean Girls).
Nothing is going on inside their puny brains. I mean if they have intelligence, they could have better english and not mix chinese with english and totally sark in it. Linguistically declined people can actually speak better english than those fat mother farkers. If they are good looking, speaks good english, not that fair, taller, slimmer, MAYBE they can talk a little about others. BUT THEY ARE UGLY, FAT, FAIR, SHORT, LINGUISTICALLY DISABLED DUMBASSES! ( sorry i had to repeat it because of my anger towards those kind of people. LoLs.
Anyways after all these shit happened, we saw chen wei lian outside that food court. He practically walked past us like about 10cm away only when we were still cursing and thinking where are those fat alienated pigs are working. Cos' we can go "play" with their service especially when we were with people who can speak well. Anyways, weilian was holding this stick and walking down the road. no one was around him to assist him. So i guess under the stage of fame and popularity, it's also just like us, walking down the street alone. Oh wells. hahahas. sorry for blogging late and for this post. I just need something to blog about. Oh and good news. I just killed a cockroach in my room just now ( no my room is not dirty. it can fly you see) =X
People having prelims, good luck and study hard! remember to destress yourself! =D If you guys dunno ways to destress, ask me. i'll teach you guys the orthodox way of destressing. =D
posted @ 1:25 AM
Saturday, September 09, 2006
OLA! okay i shan't waste anytime on this intro so yeah i'll just get on with blogging. LoLs.Okay in case people still don't know, i am now working in topman/topshop. I'm working on fridays, saturdays and sundays, and full shift. Meaning im working from store open to store close. LoLs. madness. Tired. LoLs. and FUN! Oh my god. Work is superly fun la. hahahahahas.
Anyways, today at work, i was doing the fitting room area ( as always because you can slack there :D ). Okay what we have to do is to serve the customers by removing the hangers and place the clothes in the changing room to fascilitate the customers to have a more convenient way of changing. There were alot of clothes and customers there to try on the clothes and they would normally say " Nah, thanks. I'll just look around."
So i was saying, i was serving the lady today at work and because she took the hangers ( because sometimes i just cant be bothered to remove it. So they just walked in.) into the changing room with her. After changing, she was telling me that she is going to get one top. Seeing her hands full of tried-clothes, i offered to empty her hands for her to leave the dressing room. Okay here's the embarassing moment. There were hangers sticking out of the pile of clothes she was holding. So i though by carrying the whole pile onto my hands would be fine, BUT there's a hook on every topshop hangers. So accidentally, the hook was hooking onto that lady's V shaped blouse she was wearing, revealling a little or her................( think yourself). I was like SO SO SO SO apologetic that i panicked and attempted to pull out the hanger like very quickly because it was really an awkward situation. I pulled and the tip of the hanger ALMOST hit her face. I was like HOLY COW! I'M SO SCREWED! I kept saying sorry and smiled to her in an apologetic manner. Thank god she is understanding and she knew it was an accident. She said " nah it's okay". Oh my god. So sweet la. LoLs. Then again, she kinda pretty too. LoLs.
That was the first pai seh experience i had upon working since last week. So yeah. More to come next time. :D
Oh and i have to skip my class BBQ just because i have to work too. SOBX! I so wanna meet my friends. I miss them alot. I'm sorry nad! That i can't go despite your long ago notice. We will meet out soon right? i hope. :D
Anyways i have to work tomorrow so i'm going to bath now. Cya people. Have a nice day ahead. =B
posted @ 12:49 AM